torn...

After forgetting about it a while, I finally decided to try coming back to it and look around for it. Lucky for me, two whole volumes were out while I was lost in my realm of korean-ness and japanese-ness. Lol. And also 1/7 of the latest volume. Vol.13 was only available on IRC so...that left me with only this wonderful person's(to whom I don't know her name...sorry to whoever you are, hehe) photobucket hosting. Vol.14 however, was available on Bittorent and with Bit now being my new download best friend, I was very much delighted. Since I did catch a lil of vol.13 anyway through Mags' sort-of translation, I didn't really miss much from there.

Vol.14 made me rethink the whole situation again. I was first rooting for Ichi...and was really, really in love with his character. But when Ichi became the stupid ass I didn't think he would be, I kind of turned to Daiya cause he was being extra nice and caring which makes up for Ichi's idiocy and thus causing me to switch sides and root for Daiya instead. But now...it's pretty clear Ichi still likes her but cause of Daiya (and also Ichi's very selfless or rather stupid self), he doesn't do anything about it and let it be. And she, Fuuko, realizes that although she has accepted Daiya, pieces of Ichi is still in her heart and she still feels something towards him. But cause she's with Daiya, she feels incredibly guilty and sometimes end up pushing, literally, Daiya away cause of her guilt and all. Woah. Confusing.

Anyway, back then, from where I last read, I had thought to myself, 'I'm definitely rooting for Daiya and Fuuko' cause I had lost all hope on Ichi. But reading vol.14 (specifically chapter 3) gave me a change of heart. I just felt so bad for Ichi. And then I began remembering the previous volumes that focused on the two, especially the one with them at their school festival. And I realized...I want Ichi to be with her instead. Which is insane cause I think Daiya deserves her better cause he was really there for her and all when Ichi broke her heart, but... I am just incredibly torn. And the worst part is, it's not even happening to me and it's just a manga story! Geez.

So...
IampickingIchiShinpocauseIlovedhiminthefirstplaceanywaysoI'mstickingtohimcause,
thefirstpersonyoullovewillalwayshavethespecialfeelingsinyourheart. Madness I say. First love = one. One person = hitori. Hitori = Ichi. Alright, I'm just being stupid cause it's in the wee hours of the morning and I'm partly deprived from sleep as well as Sapuri, and I had just fallen for Ichi again. Fangirldom, you have to be part of it in order to understand it.