My Mood: A little insecure...
Music: Because You Live by Jesse McCartney
Sometimes when you think you've forgotten about something, it comes back to find you again. You think you've forgotten all about it, but truth is...no. It's just hidden somewhere in the corner of your heart. Then it comes and opens back the memories that you've stored. I'm actually talking about the first guy I ever seriously liked. Yesterday, all the emotions I've felt for him when I was in Form 2, just broke loose...like a dam. I was overwhelmed by my own emotions. Okay, no, I didn't see him again. But I saw someone that was pretty much like him. The guy was tall, he had that smile, voice, hair...the guy reminded me of him. I couldn't stop looking at the guy. I couldn't help staring at him when he wasn't looking. Crazy...yes. But I couldn't help it. My mind was reeling,the memories came gushing out...and I felt what I never felt for a long time. Pure joy that's indescribable by words. I was smiling, laughing...my whole mood lifted.
My perfect guy, as in the first guy I've ever seriously liked...was the one who taught me what love is. As exaggerated this sounds, no, it's real. The feeling of it...what it means...a whole new thing for me. I was only 13 then. I've never felt anything like what I've felt then. It was like...well, I don't know how to describe it. I only know...it was pure joy. It's a feeling that you can't really describe. It's silly and funny to think just one guy...made such a big impact on my life. I can't describe how much he somehow inspired me..etc. He's not even my boyfriend or even my friend! Well, actually he was my ICQ online friend back in Form 3. But then we just lost contact after a while. Though the guy probably doesn't really realize my existence, etc...it doesn't matter. It sounds pathetically loser-view, I know...but I guess, sometimes you just don't take account too much. All I know, is that I'm glad our paths crossed, even for a while...it made a deep print in my heart.
I sound so...like a pathetically love sick loser here. Lol. So sue me. Anyway, I found a new healthy and delicious snack. And that would be...fresh lettuce with thousand island dressing and prawns. It tastes so good. You wrapped the cooked prawn up with the fresh lettuce, dip it in the thousand island...and it's like...woah. Hehe. But it's no match for dark chocolates though. That's like...pure heaven. Hehe. Oh right, adding something to my list of likes/favorites....TIES....as in colorful, cute, animated, funny ties. I love ties. They just somehow brighten up the outfit, adding a little...flavor?Spark?Zest? Hehe...When I first saw Avril Lavigne wearing a tie in her first video, I thought it was pretty cool. Btu I never really cared much then. Until this shop called My Tie Shop opened in 1 Utama and they have so many ties. Disney characters, Snoopy, etc...so many different colors of ties...it was like...wow. I've always loved the soft-silky feel of ties. My dad wears ties, so sometimes I love to play with it when I was younger. So when I saw the shop, I was floored by the variety of ties. Animatedly cute ones....plain colorful ones. Hehe. My obsession began. I bought a maroon Mickey tie and a plain maroon one. Soon it followed with a bright orange one and a creamy Snoopy tie. Then I recently bought a purple tie. Hehe. Wearing the purple tie on black is definitely cool. Billy (Good Charlotte) wore it once. So I decided, okayy...why not? tried it and I was like...wow. So now I'm targeting on getting a silver one, lime green, royal blue ones...and more animated funny ones. Hoping to find those with silly crazy smiley faces. Hehe. So my dear friends and brother, another clue to my birthday/christmas present...hehe.
I guess that's it. Now to go do my fan fictions...lol. Hold it, I forgot. Arsenal's match with Blackburn. No, I didn't get to watch it. Ugh. Missed two games in the row. Deprived. Truly deprived. Sigh. Anyway, the score...1-0. Yeah! Arsenal won with van Persie's 43rd minute goal. Cool. Though the team was practically all young players...I guess it's still cool that they can keep themselves in check. But I didn't get to watch the match!!! That's so not fair. *Sulks* Lol.
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