My Mood: Miffed...
Music: What Makes You Different (Makes You Beautiful) by Backstreet Boys
Damn it. I actually finished my blog post earlier...but it was erased off by accident. Crap. A long half an hour blog wasted....stupid me. Very stupid. And now...I have to blog again. Ugh!!!
Okay, so what I wanted to blog about....hang on...deep breath...Cool...chill....*blows at the air* Okay. Hehe. Actually, I was pretty high earlier...as in flying. Why? Cause I had so many great reviews for the latest chapter of my Slam Dunk fan fic. It was like...great...good....amazing...and I'm like...woah! Seriously. I never thought my fics were like...that good, I just thought it was well, pretty nice. Hehe. But the reviews I've been getting all the while...oh wow. Not just my Slam Dunk fic...but also for my One Tree Hill fics. The reviews have always been so encouraging and so nice, it just motivates me and brightens up my day. Hehe. So thankful and grateful.
To tell the truth, my English sucks. Like seriously. When it comes to grammar...I'm like...huh? I mean, I know my way around the language, how to use it...the meanings of the words...when to use the words etc. But give me an exam on grammar...I'll flunk it for you. Seriously, I will. Ask me what's punctuations/adjectives/etc...my reaction? Wha..what??? Blank look...Lol.
K, adding in my list of likes...tiramisu cake. I just love it. The taste of tiramisu is like..wow. So, hint hint...wink wink...Lol. And one more I forgot to add earlier...how could I forget?? Coffee! I'm addicted to it. I love smell of coffee and the warm taste of it...sigh...Little bits of heaven. Hehe. That makes, 10 + ties + tiramisu + coffee...13 things. Another thing and it will add up to my current favorite number...14. Hehe. So once again...hint hint...wink wink wink...Lol.
On Friday, I bawled my eyes out. For a fan fic! Lol. Tears gathered in my eyes when I reached the middle, my heart was half- breaking...by the end of the fic...tears were streaming down my cheeks and my heart was so broken. Lol. It was a RuMitRu fic...which means the ever so cool Rukawa and the ever so gorgeous Mitsui. It was incredibly sad....a death fic, which means someone's bound to die here. And someone did die...Rukawa. The sad part wasn't exactly Rukawa dead...okay, sorta..but the incredibly sad part is actually the fact that he took his own life and Mitsui was left alone and didn't have the chance to tell Rukawa his feelings...it was..heart-wrenching. I kept crying. See, in the fic..Rukawa was badly abused by a gang (which I presume includes abuse in sexually) and he turned to Mitsui for comfort. Mitsui was there by his side, letting him cry and all that. Rukawa was in deep pain..inside and out. He felt his whole world had crumbled down and it's all ruined. Mitsui was hurting to see Rukawa that way, at the same time...burning with anger at those thugs who did this to Rukawa. Keep in mind, Rukawa is the 'cool' kind, like an Ice Prince that never shows his feelings to anyone...so when this happens...as he cries his heart out...it's extremely...painful for one to see. Finally when Rukawa falls asleep, Mitsui goes out looking for blood. He killed the daylights out of those guys. When Rukawa woke up...seeing his sempai(as in senior) not around, he thought Mitsui had left him and was gone for good. Rukawa found a piece of glass from a broken vase...took it. And...made the decision...to kill himself. He didn't have any other way out...he wanted to make it all go away, he wanted everything that happened...didn't happened at all. So, he chose death as the way out. Mitsui was a bloody sight himself, he fought with the idiots all by himself in the club. Finally, he collapsed in exhaustion. Woke up, his friend told him that Rukawa took his own life. Mitsui broke down. He cried and it was so heart-wrenching....he didn't get the chance to tell Rukawa that he liked/loved Rukawa too and he wasn't going to let anyone harm him anymore...Okay, I suck at summaries. Reading the story itself would give a better feel to the sad part.
The writer is amazing. The words used in the fic drew me right into it. I felt like I was there. I felt what Mitsui/Rukawa was feeling...the emotions,etc. To me, only a good writer can achieve that. Pulling a reader into the story, making the reader feel/see/touch/hear..just be there...in the scene itself. I think that's really amazing. Not everyone can do that, not even me. It gives you a better feel to the story...that I can't really describe it. And yes, this a guys-love fic...as in homosexual....or better known as 'yaoi' to most anime fan fic writers. Lol. I have nothing against this. It's pretty much the same, a story of sweet love...just that it's between two guys...not guy-girl. Lol. Some finds it gross, well kinda...but sometimes these fics are so good and sweet and touching that you can't help love them. Besides..Mitsui-Rukawa...Rukawa-Sendoh...is wayyy to cute together. Lol. And homosexuals are just the same us...flesh,blood...humans. No difference, except sexual preferences when it comes to love. I mean, they are pretty nice too and they can be friendly and all that. So why should we judge a person based on a little difference. It's not a big deal. There's no need for any bashings/insults/etc....we're all humans. Same and equal. Including those who are different race/religion/beliefs/etc....humans...like anyone of us. Love everyone for who and what they are and accept them for who and what they are...Be equal and fair to everyone.
My point is? My point is...stop judging and hating one another. Life's not meant for us to be idiots. Lol. Some might not agree, especially when it comes to homosexuals...well, that's too bad I say. In life, there are so many nice and interesting people with so many stories/experiences/lessons to share and tell, and so many friends we can know...so much smiles and joy we can share and exchange....so if one wanna miss that out, their loss. To me, whoever and whatever....it's no big deal. As long as you're real and sincere. Lol. Don't agree with me, hell...like I care. Hehe.
Yes...made it..end of my blog post....my second blog post of the day actually...lol. Oh well, that's it...bloggedy-bloggy off now...la la la la la....
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