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My Mood: Very ME-oriented...
Music: Unpredictable by Skye Sweetnam

Huh. I'm so...disliking...wait, hate...when people tend to try to read me like a book. And when the plot of the book doesn't go as they expect, they will be like questioning why not? Why? Why? Bla bla. Okay, so you have the book cover...you look at it, but you can't really guess what's inside yet right? You flip to the prologue, and it just give you hints here and there...but there's no saying what's more into the story. Yet, predictions/guesses/pre-determined thoughts/fundamental attributions/early conclusions/etc...still comes up. Okay, so everyone does do these things when they first read a book. But...if it doesn't come out like how you expect it to be, do you really have to like raise your eyebrows EVERYTIME...have this lost/confused/suspicious look on your face EVERYTIME...?? Answer-No. Keep in mind here that I'm using a book as a metaphor.

When I do something unexpected, all those stupid looks/comments/questions just come shooting my way. What? I can't do this/that? They'll question me..etc...Hate that. Why are people keeping me in this mental frame they have of me? Yes, I seem nice, sweet....quiet....your typical girl next door. But that's not the whole part of me. I know I've blog about this before, but I can't help blogging about it again. Cause it's really bugging me. Why is everyone treating me like a little girl? A little girl that have to be protected from all kinds of things...a little girl that can't do this and that, can't be exposed to this/that...a little girl that can't know this/that....I know more than you think. I'm not 'that' stupid.

When I don't act the way I'm 'suppose' to....people..just give me odd looks...etc. Like having my fingernails painted black. People were like...'What have you done?!!?!?! Why black?!?!? So awful......' etc. I just feel like it. I dislike pastel...pinks...purples..I like black. So sue me. Like when I started to watch football...my friends were like...'What?!?! You're a girl....bla bla..' I like football, I get an adrenaline rush when I watch football...so sue me. When I like to put my legs up in on the chair, snuggle away to get comfortable in the cinema...eyebrows are raised. I'm like...what? I'm getting comfortable, my legs are on my chair...not the person in front of me or anything...I'm not disrupting your view or anything...Like when I sit on the high top place watching cars go by, the people in the cars give me a 'so unappropriate' look on their face. Or when I wear slightly 'skater-punk'-ish...people give me that 'so unappropriate' look too.

What? What? I dislike it even more so when all this 'crap' comes from people I know/people who know me...at least I thought so. Why are you conforming me to just one view? Why can't you accept all the other parts of me? I know I sound so mean...but, I just can't help it. True, when I was younger..I was so...well, nice. But now that I'm turning 18...now that I've experienced/learn so much...now that I know/learn what I didn't know/learn then...I've changed. People change. I don't understand why people can't accept the fact I've changed too. I admit that when people I know change, I don't immediately accept it, but I do accept it a lil later on. And I'm cool with it after that. But some people just don't. They seem to think I've turned to the 'bad' crowd...or I'm like one of those 'crazy-junkie-teens' (whatever)...sigh. I just like to try out new stuff...just wanna discover...all in the right,legal way of course...

'I hate when things are simple and so plain, Don't wanna be the same, Cause I'm unpredictable, unpredictable, I like when things are crazy and insane, Don't wanna be tame, Cause I'm unpredictable, unpredictable.' -Skye Sweetnam 'Unpredictable'

Sigh...I know..I sound like a bloody idiot here...lol...but if I don't get it out...I might get nutz. Hehe. This is just...ME. Live with it...or don't. Who cares? Not me. Lol. So sue me.

p.s : 'Unpredictable' lyrics are under Skye and her recording company. I do not own the song. No copyright infringement intended.