I hate jealousy. Yet I cannot push it away and let it consume me. I hate that feeling. It's got to be the worst feeling to feel, other than grief.
The jealousy ranges from the small to the big things, from friends to strangers. And even though I try to distract myself and say it doesn't matter, ignore it, etc...it doesn't work. Oh how I dislike myself for feeling in such a way.
I hate, really hate to feel this way. Cause feeling jealousy basically means I'm insecure myself and I don't feel satisfied with myself. I thought I was over all that 'stupidity', obviously I'm not.
Right now, I'm sick. Have been sick since last...Thursday? Yeah. I could have gotten better by Sunday actually, but nope, I had to be the silly rebel by drinking 4 glasses of cold Coke on Saturday. Lol. I'll never learn.
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