"...My tears are turning into time I've wasted, trying to find a reason for goodbye..."
I'm so upset. Aargh! I hate unhappy endings! Hate hate hate. Hate! It's so unfair. Okay, fine...there will always be the downsides in life, I know...but it's so unfair. Why this way? It's so not fair...it's heart-breaking, heart-wrenching. What in the world am I being so upset about? One Tree Hill Season 2. Nathan and Haley. I can't believe it. No way. No way. I cried when I read what had happened. I know, such a spoiler person me, but then again, this is how I got to know OTH in the first place so it's kinda like my usual now. Lol. And those pictures of them...omg...my heart broke so badly. Why them? And Nathan....*Speechless and sniffles.* I'm NOT going to watch season 2 anymore. No way...I'll cry badly over it, I just know...I'm one of the world's most emotionally-romantic person. Lol. I have to avoid watching OTH as much as I would like to watch it and can't resist it.
Crying is something I kinda have to avoid. Cause ever since early this year I realized that everytime I cry, it really hurts inside. Not the figure of speech kinda hurt but it really hurts. As in, I'm feeling it and it tugs at me so badly that it leaves me gasping at times. Even when I stop crying, it still hurts. So basically, when I cry...it hurts me emotionally, mentally and physically. Though it doesn't occur everytime I cry, only times when I cry really badly, I still wanna avoid it, so it leaves me avoiding anything that will make me cry...like OTH. Lol.
Anyway, I added a really cool link to my blog. Yay! DareToMove.net....the most amazing site for anything Nathan & Haley. Quotes, clips, images, etc....truly a wonderful site. I totally love it. I actually didn't really know how to add a link cause there was the coding thing and all that. And I'm not that familiar with codings/html/etc yet...but then I decided to try anyway and yeap, I did it! Hehe. So satisfied with it. Soon, I'll be adding more links to sites I love and always frequent too, but I need to ask permissions here and there before I do so, cause some sites don't provide links but they don't mind you linking them, or either they don't provide links and they don't allow linking.
Sunday was Mother's Day and also my mom's birthday. I surprised her by placing her gift next to her bedside along with her card so that when she wakes up she'll see it. Mom was truly pleased and surprised with the gift, I know. Hehe. She was happy...and that's what I love to see. My mom being happy. Sometimes, I worry about her alot. And sometimes when I think about what were to happen if my mom leaves...it totally kills me inside to even think of it. Though at times I lose my temper at her, scream, shout, etc...but the times I do, I really regret it. I don't mean it at all. My stupid temper gets in the way and I know it hurts her so much when I do so. Sigh. I really have to control my stupid temper.
Well, finals is almost here...is..2 days? Not that excited about it nor am I looking forward to it. Why do we have to have exams anyway? As far I noticed, most genius/inventors/etc... exams weren't exactly the ones who helped them anyway. It was more like...they depended on themselves, they work hard for it and...okay, fine...whatever. I'm arguing something that is not arguable anyway and my points are really lame.
That's it...I feel so lame. Lame....Lame. Hehe. I'm just humoring myself. I'm not lame...hell no. I think. Lol.
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