my mOOd...

I wasn't going to blog, well actually I was planning to blog earlier, but then I suddenly lost my good mood and thought...forget it, I'm not up for it anyway. But when I think about it again, I decided what the hell. Good mood or not, I'll just blog anyway.

I have issues. Serious issues. Lol. I mean it. See, today I started with a really good mood. Everything went pretty well, I had fun (though there were those boring, sleepy moments at work) but all in all, I had a nice day. I came home,still in a good mood...until dinner time. I got annoyed over something and it started from there. My mood started downhill. But then it turned all good again for a while. But an hour or so later, it went back down. I really don't understand myself. How can I be happy one moment and bloody upset the next? What is my problem?? And when I'm in a bad mood, I tend to snap at anyone, everyone, anything and everything. Really. Why can't I keep my good mood? Why do I have to be such a pessimistic, negative, sad, moody person??? Sigh.

But I'm not gonna dwell on that crap. Ugh. Forget it. I'm hopeless when it comes to understanding myself at times.

Three weeks of internship...and I'm not really doing much actually, though I do get to learn the works and all. So far things are just going pretty much like usual...nothing new. But I like my editor alot. Lol. He's so cool. And I love his smile...everytime I smile at him, he would definitely smile back and the smile's always so friendly and reassuring. Last Wednesday we had this event at a club in KL, with a band from Australia and two(?) popular DJs. It was my first experience at a club...and though it wasn't fun, it was still pretty okay I guess. A definite eye-opening experience. But one thing's for sure, I'm never going back to stuff like that anymore. I like the fact that people are all friendly and easy going at the club, but I totally dislike the fact that there were 'fakers' around and the smoke! My hair and clothes caught the smoke smell so badly that I went home, headed to the bathroom straightaway and shampoo-ed/scrubed myself with orange-flavor bath foam and my Sunsilk shampoo. Ugh. The event however, was pretty okay. Alot of people turned up, but I don't think it was as much as it was expected. Things were pretty organized though we kinda messed up a lil here and there.

And the thing that brightened my mood and day...I have finally gotten my CDs. All three. Lol. Brand New, M Girlfriend Edition and M; Mystyle...which I have to say, are awesome. Right now, my playlist keeps repeating songs from Brand New. Hehe. Plus, all three CDs had cool images of the guys which brought on the added joy. I can't explain how I felt as I slowly opened the wrap around the CDs and carefully take out the contents...lol. I have waited pretty long for the CDs so with all the anticipation built up, it's bound to expect I would get a lil 'high'. Yup, I definitely love getting stuffs that I like...even if it's from me myself. My heart would do a lil jig in anticipation and excitement whenever I receive something that I know I'd like/love. I should treat myself more. Lol. And get myself broke. Hehe.

I wish I was a kid again. Really a kid. Like say...age 9. Or somewhere there. I dunno. It just came up to my mind that way. Lol.