whAt's new...

Currently, my life reeks. Okay, not entirely, but close enough. If you've yet to meet someone absolutely, very much, totally, definitely, no-doubt-about-it, pathetic...well, you've just met one. And that would be me. I oozed pathetic-ness and I am so darn pathetic at times that it makes me feel like flinging myself down from the 50th floor of any random building, like a rag doll bacause even I can't take my pathetic side. The idea is very tempting indeed. Yeap, very. But that would lead to the word - suicide, which is something that I don't really have in mind. I'm such a doofus...okay, the self-bashing stops here. I can be really dramatic at times, I mean, who am I to complain when there are people worse off? I should stop feeling sorry for myself. But I can't. I always go back to that same, sad, pathetic case...and I just let it be. I should shut up right now. Why am I babbling? Honestly, I have no idea what am I doing. Lol.

Two weeks of internship has passed and stuff I did...
One) Anwering the phone
Two) Doing write up for listings
Three)Entering the write ups into the site
Four) Anwering the phone
Five) Doing write up for listings
Six)Entering the write ups into the site
It kinda goes around like that. But there's the occasional making phone calls, attending press conferences (twice, so far) and sharing of ideas. Other than that, that's pretty much it. Well, it's not too bad, but it's not that good either...to put it straight...I think I'd be happier to be in college or just at home. Lol. This Wednesday is gonna be exciting. Lol. Note that I'm being sarcastic. I'm not exactly that hyped up for it, but it's pretty okay I guess. It will be my first time meddling in a huge event(or maybe second time) and stepping out to the night life. Woah. Sounds big. Lol. Not really. Okay, sort of. Close enough. Still, yeah, I guess it would make a good experience.

My com has been fixed, sorta anyway. But due to some reasons, I still have to send the com for repair again, and this time, to change my hard disk and reformat everything again. I'm partially helpless without my com. That's what I realized in the past...4 days. When my com crashed, I freaked. I really mean it. I f-r-e-a-k-e-d. A stream of curse words came out of my mouth as my eyes narrowed dangerously with that step-onto-my-path-and-you'll-be-dead look on my face. After the whole angry episode, comes the breakdown where the tears come crashing and I'd throw myself on the bed wondering what the hell did I do to deserve this? My com's important to me. Very. Why so? Cause I store everything in it. My music, MVs, files, documents, photos, graphics, layouts, fav sites, etc. When I found out I had to reinstall some stuff and I had to look again for my fav sites, I wanted to bang my head on the wall in frustration. Yeah, drama queen. Lol. I guess the moral of the story is...never be too attached or reliant on something, or someone, since I'm along those lines.

Anyway, enough of my whiny-loser self...hehe, on to happy stuff. Let's see...my birthday is coming up in...2 weeks? And I've decided to spend it with my friends...at least I hope I will be. I'll be turning 18, the legal age, which actually makes no difference to me cause I'm always seen and treated as the little kid, which is fine by me, sometimes. Lol. Tomorrow will be Dongwan's birthday and a week later would be Hyesung's birthday, which coincidentally falls on a Sunday too, like mine, and like Christmas and New Year's. Lol. I'm kinda excited for Christmas, hope to be able to do something fun for that day.

I guess I'll stop blabbing and just end here.

Before that, before I become the ever-so-forgetful person that I am, since it's a special someone's birthday tomorrow.....happy birthday Dongwan oppa.


I had actually intended for a layout, but cause I lack time and lack of ideas/creativity, I had to forgo the idea and did this instead. It's really simple, but, I like it anyway. Hehe. Credits for the brushes used goes to MissM, who by the way, has the coolest Photoshop brushes around. Mags, go check out her site! Hehe.

Yeap, that's it.