complaining and rambling

I'm supposed to be asleep since it's 1.24am and my class is at 8am,which means a 6am wake-up call. But I am just feeling so pressured somehow and also very much irritated and annoyed.

Pressured because of my PR assignment which is half-killing me cause I can't seem to structure my content properly so it's all a big glob of confusing points in disorganized paragraphs. I spent a couple of hours on it (today and yesterday) but it's still as messy as ever.

Annoyed and irritated because of the some people I know...and it irritates me like bloody hell cause one of them is someone I'm close to. I hate it when a person I really like and am close to, just...irks me until the point of where I am on the verge of stabbing a fork into his/her eyes. It just makes it a whole lot unbearable cause it's someone you're close to, so the fact that he/her is being an ultimate jerk (if there was one) to you, is harder to accept than if it was some casual friend.

And second reason of being annoyed, I've just discovered one or two of my files have gone missing, wiped out into some sort of strange warp space in my com. Well, not really, but some sort along those lines. I remembered having it, but strangely when I checked again cause I wanted to watch it, it's gone. How can it be gone if that was the original location for all of those file types and I don't recall deleting anything from that hard disk section recently. The most bloody thing about it, the file lost is actually hard to obtain. So it's gone. Permanently. That sucks.

I really need to re-organize some stuff. Like my hard disk sections. And the messy mixed-up pile of papers on my desk. The Singapore trip plans. My life. I need to re-organize my life. The stuff I've put on hold for a million years now.

On the bright side, The Fray's 'How to Save a Life' CD is finally available in M'sia music stores, well at least in Rock Corner it is. So I immediately bought it when I saw it on Saturday although it meant an extra tight food budget for me until the end of this month. But it's another two weeks...I'll survive somehow. On...RM7? Somewhere there.

I really feel like stabbing a fork into my eyes. I just feel so incredibly...pathetic which is not anything new, it's something I feel most of the time anyway. It comes along with depression as a readily-available component in the package, complete with user-friendly installation, delivered straight to me when I was about 15? I should shut up now.