LiFe is gOod...at leAst I thOugHt so...

My mood: Sad and upset
Music:I'll Be by Edwin McCain

Okay...so I thought life is good...nothing could go wrong anymore...well,I'm so wrong.So wrong.I hate to be wrong.Really hate it.Here I was,thinking life's amazing and all that...well, damn it...it's not...
I was having a nice day,really nice day....the little 3 year old my mum was taking care of came up to me and greeted me with a 'Hi' and a hug when I got up from my sleep...heaven...a little piece of it anyway.There's that unexplainable joy when little things like that happens.Sometimes it's just a Hershey dark chocolate...sometimes it's a smile from my dad/mum's face....sometimes the cool breeze on my face...yup,joy...anyway,that's not what I'm trying to say...okay,so I got up and my mum had to go for her medical check up.I thought nothing of it but said a little prayer anyway that everything's okay. When she came home,she was different.So here it comes,I asked my mum what the doctor said but when she didn't really reply,I knew something was up...
Yeap,she has this problem(which I don't feel like telling it out cause I don't want to believe it's true and telling it seems like it's REAL,like confirming it is...) so she has to go for surgery...I hate that.My mum has been into surgery before and after the surgery,she becomes really weak.My heart aches at the sight of her so weak and tired.I love my mum so much I just don't want anything to happen to her...I want her to see me graduate for my diploma with honours,which is next year(May 2006)....I want her to see my graduation day(which happens a year later)...I want her to see me continuing for my degree and graduating...I want her to see/meet my first boyfriend...I want her to be there on my wedding day...my kid's birth....etc...not just her,but my dad too.I have to yet to fulfilled what she dreams of...a beautiful single-storey home filled with IKEA furniture ONLY...Okay,I sound like she's gonna depart from this world...she's NOT...NO,NO,NO.I refuse to let that thinking into my mentality.No way!
Obviously,my mum is my world.So is my dad.I can't imagine not being with them.I know they will leave sooner or later,but I want it to be later....like really,really later.There's so many places I want to take them to,so many things to try and see...So,just like this song,I'll Be by Edwin McCain(btw,this is a really,really good song.It's not too ballad-like but it still has that sweet,romantic feel)...
"And I dropped out, I burned up, I fought my way back from the dead.I’m tuned in, I turned on, remembered the thing that you said."
My parents were my guiding hand,my crying shoulder...their love,care,wisdom...I treasure them all...When I'm down,their words..their care...their closeness...comforts me more than anything else...oh wow,I so love my parents....I really do.
So,to my parents...
" And I'll be your cryin' shoulder...I'll be love's suicide...And I'll be better when I'm older...I'll be the greatest fan of your life..."