...whAt's. tHe. deAL??

My Mood: Normal...a little bit tickled..
Music: Lindsay Lohan's Speak album

Wow..so my past entry had 3 comments...wow.Okay...to Cassie,Magdalene, and Justin, thanks for the comments and also nice words. Very much appreciated. Truth is, I know being so stressed over my grades is stupid...yeah, I do know grades aren't everything...but sometimes,it just gets to you whether you like it or not. But yeah, I am listening to your words/advice...thanks.

So...I was working today(in a gift wrapping shop)...and there was this guy who came in with a girl. She was his friend. They had wanted to find a box to put in a heart-shaped cushion.Okayy..so this guy is like..um...Form 3...cute, (as in little brother cute..lol) polite and nice...He wanted to get the cushion for a girl..I presume a girl he likes cause according to their conversation, the girl was leaving soon, he was getting her a gift...and it's a surprise gift. Sweet. But then,out of nowhere the girl and their other friends came up, right outside the shop...the guy panicked and was like..'Oh shit....oh shit....oh no....oh no...' he was flushing red. At first I thought my eyes weren't seeing clearly, I thought it was the lighting, but when I observed clearly...his face was turning red...the shades of red became more and more obvious...his face went so, so red...I had to duck under the table to laugh. Sorry, I knew it was kinda mean to laugh..lol...but it was so cute and sweet. His face was so red, like tomato red...oh wait..it should be the traffic lights red. Yeah, that cute...hehe. Anyway, his other friends manage to distract the girl away...and when I was done..the whole thing was pretty expensive..so I decided to ease his 'money-situation' by only charging one meter of the ribbon used instead of one and a half meter...and not charging for the little extra white ribbon and the potpourri used. And the total was still pretty expensive...RM22.90...I told him to forget about the 90 cents..just 22 will do. He obliged happily...when he left, I took out my wallet to pay the 90 cents and the other half meter ribbons..which in all was RM 3.70. Why did I do that, considering I don't even know the guy?
One; I overheard him saying he had used up his money..none left for this last week of the month...Two; He was worried about how to explain to his mom about his whole money usage...Three; His friend was saying that he was too nice to always obliging to treat his friends and all that, that's why his money runs out fast..So, I decided...why not? I mean, he's obviously a nice kid and I do sympathize the fact that he has no money left for the rest of the week..plus..the guy was being so sweet and nice..And another thing? I understand that he wants to give the girl a wonderful,memorable present...so,when you want to give someone special something...definitely your gift has to be special too right? But when it comes to gift-wrapping..special would mean more
money too...lol. So..I just decided...I'll pay the rest for him. It's no big deal. In truth, I used up the rest of my money for the week..but I know it's worth it. I mean, the girl's gonna be happy to receive the gift...and then the guy will be happy too cause she's happy...so, I'm making two happy people here...hey, it sure makes it all so worth it.

Anyway..today I actually wanted to blog about...what.is.the.deal? What I mean? People keep asking me...do you have a boyfriend? The same thing..over and over...I'm like..No. And they go...sure or not? You're lying...that's impossible..no way...you surely have a boyfriend...bla bla bla. What's.the.deal???!!!!??? Am I missing out something here? Since when is it impossible/unbelivable/etc. when a girl says she has no boyfriend?? So when I say no, they don't believe me...but when I say yes...they don't believe either..(Actually, I can understand why they don't believe when I say I have a boyfriend..it's cause I'd tell them James Lafferty..the amazing, hot, gorgeous, sweet, charming actor...star of One Tree Hill..is my boyfriend...lol) Anyway, the point is..when I tell the truth...no one believes..when I tell a lie..no one believes either...God, save me. Is is that hard to believe I have NO BOYFRIEND? They all like to ask me why...Okay, why? Cause I'm looking for a guy...who's mischievous/brat/jerk/egotistical on the outside but inside...he's sweet/charming/nice/caring...a side that no one knows and finds..but a side that I would find.Sorta like Landon Carter(A Walk To Remember)..Nathan Scott(One Tree Hill)...Tristin Dugrey/Jess Mariano(Gilmore Girls) I don't want a predictable guy...I want a guy that's different on the outside but inside, there's a sweet, real part of him that he hides..he doesn't discover yet..but I'll find it in him. Am I making sense? Lol...Two; I'm actually more interested in 'bad-boys' then the usual clean cut ones....The 'bad boys' I mean aren't those type who takes drugs/alcohol/smokes...etc...but I mean those that loves to play pranks/who thinks the world revolves around them/who loves to break rules sometimes/who's extra playful..etc...If you noticed, in one of my earlier posts, I wrote about the 3 guys I seriously liked throughout these years...and all three...has a mischievous side in them. So, my guy has to have this side in him...though I'll admit it isn't the best quality in the world, but it's one that makes them a little more fun and crazy...to be with..lol. Three; I'm also attracted to 'punk' guys...who? Guys like Billy Martin and Joel Madden from Good Charlotte...Billy Armstrong from Greenday..guys who loves dark eyeliners...dark eyeshadow...dark clothes....yeah...those guys.Okay, I know..shocking!..The understatement of the century...lol...I know most of my friends are now like...woah?Is this the same Jessica we're talking here?Guys with dark make-up and dark clothes???Hehe...yeah..no doubt about it. Okay..so THIS is why I don't have a boyfriend..cause I can't find the guy yet...uh huh....

Anyway..not putting any quotes today...I'm putting up my drawings/sketches instead...hehe...this is another way where I put up my feelings and also to release myself from all my worries...cause when I draw I seem to lose myself in it and forget about everything else. I started drawing last year...got a little inspired by One Tree Hill, where Peyton draws to let her feelings loose...I think that's a good thing..though I'm not artist but I just draw what my mind sees...and that's what comes out on the paper. So, please..don't be 'too harsh' with your judgements on my drawings..lol...alright that's it...I need to sleep..I'm dead tired actually...