...sO muCh fOr my hAppY enDing....

My Mood: Confused
Music: My Happy Ending & Nobody's Home by Avril Lavigne

My Happy Ending....by Avril Lavigne...perfect.Perfect? Yeah...perfect for my situation...so much for my happy ending...why is it when there's a happy ending to my story..it turns out the other way and it all falls to pieces...crumbling down? Unfair...so unfair..

God, right now...I'm feeling confused...I can't set my mind straight...I need to have faith, but it's so hard. I feel like I'm slipping away somehow. Slipping away..from...I don't know...from everything? To tell the truth...I'm starting to get sick of my studies...I'm actually pressuring myself to maintain my GPA...for my first semester I got a 3.67, A- but for my second semester I got a 3.65, a B+...Just 0.02 points to an A-.I was dissapointed...really dissapointed. Now for my third semester, I have a feeling my GPA is gonna be a B+ too...cause two out of three subjects, I had gotten an A-. That's not good...I need an A at least to maintain an A- GPA...but no. Sigh...you'd think this is ridiculous...I know I do think so...but somehow..I'm still letting this grade thing get to me. Probably because I want to make it to the honours list for my graduation. I wanna make my parents proud of me.I wanna...I....oh, forget it.

And seriously...my mood has sunk a little low recently...I have a feeling my slight depression is coming back to haunt me. Crap. I don't need that. I think I need a long vacation...far away from everything and everyone...I need to unwind myself somehow. I feel...ugh...indescribable by words. Hell, this is pure crap. I can't even tell how I'm feeling....forget it...be positive right?Lighten up...chill...hah,I sound like I'm trying to convince myself on something I know I probably won't do...Yeah...I think I need to get away from all this...definitely..hell yeah.

No quotes for today...don't wanna sound so contradicting to myself...I'm not exactly in the perfect mood..lol..but then again, I just saw something that's making my day better...my mum and dad's smile...the happy tone in their voice. Okay...I think I'll be fine. Cool. Happy thoughts...funny moments...yeah, that's what one needs...Okay,so maybe I'll put some quotes in...I mean,just because I'm down in the dumps doesn't mean I should drag others down with me too..right?Lol...

'I believe there's a little hero in all of us.'
Aunt May (Spiderman 2)

'If you judge people, you have no time to love them.'
Mother Teresa

'Kindness in words creates confidence. Kindness in thinking creates profoundness. Kindness in giving creates love.'
Lao-tzu

'To give pleasure to a single heart by a single act is better than a thousand heads bowing in prayer.'
Gandhi

'In the darkest hour, the soul is replenished and given strength to continue and endure.'
Heart Warrior Chosa

'You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience by which you really stop to look at fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, "I lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along.'
Eleanor Roosevelt.

'You were born with wings. Why prefer to crawl through life?'
Rumi

'Face the thing you fear, and you do away with that fear.'
Source Unknown

Hehe..actually there's more quotes...but I think I'll just continue tomorrow or some other day. In fact, I do feel better...typing and reading this quotes does inspire me a little somehow. Cool. Okay, so all quotes are not mine, they belong to their respective owners. The quote from Spiderman 2, is under the movie production's ownership.
Guess that's all I wanna blog...and people...try smiling at anyone you see who's down and unhappy...you can bring a little flick of joy in that person's day. Trust me.