nerVous-wRecK....

"Another day is going by...I'm thinking about you all the time...But you're out there and I'm here waiting..."

I'm a nervous-wreck. So wrecked. I really, REALLY need to go to Singapore. In July. By July 11. Why so? Cause Good Charlotte is going to Singapore, performing at the Singapore Indoor Stadium on July 12. And I sure as hell....NEED TO GO! But I have all these things to check out and I'm going nuts. From travel, to accomodation, to all kinds of stuff, to getting the tickets itself! Aargh! And here I was thinking about going back-packing across Europe. What WAS I thinking? I'm a wreck right now. My mind is like...wha? So blur and nuts. I just wish there was someone who would be so kind enough who would just...present me with the tickets to the concert, settling all my travel/accomodation stuff and that's that. Yeah, like for my birthday present! Who am I kidding? My birthday is in December. Forget it. I'm dreaming. Not even my big brother would do all this for me. I doubt it even in my dreams. Lol. Sigh...looks like it's up to me.

I'm starting to think maybe I'm a little too insane over the guys, I mean....wait, wait...who cares? I like them, no wait, I love these guys! They're...amazing. And honestly, I'm dying to see Billy play the guitar live. Wish explains my choice of song...I'd Do Anything by Simple Plan. I'd do anything.....well, okay, maybe not quite ANYthing...lol. Oh well, cross my fingers and hope I'd be able to settle everything.

I'm a wreck. Yeah, I realize that I keep repeating that. But truthfully, I do think I am a wreck. Or rather, insane. Or delusional. Wait, delusional is the best word to describe me. Why so? I'm head over heels in love with Reno. I can't get enough of that cocky smirk of his that I can just imagine, his stupid-sly remarks...that long, flaming red hair and that aqua blue eyes....I'm grinning as I think about him. Just a look at the guy, and I'm like....smiling, grinning. Honestly, for a guy to have an effect like that on me, that is one hell of a guy. And the stupidest part about my craziness over him is that he is JUST a game character! That's it! He's not real-life. In fact, there's probably no one like him in real life either. He's just a character from Final Fantasy 7, that's it! THAT'S IT! Yeah, I keep repeating that to remind myself that he's JUST a character and hope it would rub off on me and help me realize my stupidity and insanity. Lol. Though I kinda doubt it will...maybe in another month or so...I hope.Hehe. This has seriously got to stop. Really stop...Lol.

I'm actually thinking about writing a fan fic about Reno x Tifa. But I'm kinda nervous...I mean, this pairing isn't exactly the most easy pairing to write about, though I think it's slightly easier in comparison with a Vincent x Tifa fic (That one is really tough, to which is why I admire all Vincent x Tifa fic writers). You don't wanna get out of character, but you want them to be how you imagine them to be, and you have to choose the right words, the right scenes...It's not like One Tree Hill, to which I find it more easier. I kinda got a little bored with One Tree Hill fan fics, no idea why. I seem to be talking like I'm some sort of amazing writer, which I'm not. Face it Jess, your writing is unpredictable, it sucks at times...hehe, reality check.

I really should just shut up right now, cause I think I'm slightly over my head right now...yeah...really over my head..I actually wanted to post up something inspirational again, but uh...yeah, I'm delusional, so it's best I don't add anything else...yeah, I really should shut up right now.