Know how people always say, that you will learn from the past? Or that you will learn from mistakes? Well, that may drum into the minds' of some, but not for my mind. That single sentence cannot seem to process through my thick-skull and into my brain.
Once again, I became the slacker that I am. See, my Econs assignment is due at the end of this month, which...is less than 2 weeks. I only realize that fact, when my brother (who borrowed a couple of books from his university library for me for my assignment, thank you!) asked me when was the thing due. I told him at the end of the month. Then it hit me that it was already the 18th. I checked my wonderful desktop calendar which featured the one and only Hyesung, lol, I then realize that I'm in serious trouble. I haven't even pick my question for sure. I only think I know what I am doing.
I.Am.So.Dead.
It makes me wonder, what was I doing during my mid sem break which was for a week plus. What the heck was I thinking? That I could just slack off and get cracking over the 1000-1200 word assignment later, like much later? I must have been delusional then. Or just plain stupid.And to top it off, I still have to complete the homepage of my project's website. Joy. Why didn't I just get over it then? And then at least I have one thing less to be bugged about. Hello Jess, pure stupidity at work here.
So here I am, at 3-ish in the morning, blogging about my stupid problem, when I should be asleep or at least researching on my assignment, heck, or at least trying to code the site. Nope, I am just too dead lazy and tired to do so. And I can't sleep yet cause lately my sleeping-clock has been messed up. I slept at 3-ish almost every day during my mid sem break, so now, I'm all tuned to sleeping at 3-ish and no earlier. That really took a toll on me when I was having my mid sems. Ugh.
I wish I could just crawl into a hole and never come out again, at least not for now anyway. How did I mess things up this way? Once again, I royally screwed things up, all by myself. Way to go Jess.
I manage to catch an Arsenal match last week, the one against Liverpool. It's been a long time since I've watch them play and I know as a fan, that reeks. I wanted to watch the Champions League match against Real Madrid, but being the stupid kid that I am, I mistook the dates, got mixed up and ended up missing the live telecast of the match. Still, the Liverpool one was pretty satisfying. Arsenal of course, ended up winning as they did with the recent match against Charlton. And while watching the match against Liverpool, I found myself missing all the action. I missed cheering(or rather shouting) for them and getting all hyped up and excited over the game. The thrills and joy of football. So, I am going to make a point to catch up on all of Arsenal matches from now on.
One thing about this post, it's pointless. Because in the end, it all works out. I'm just lucky that way somehow. Things work out eventually...but not after my panic button is pushed and I go all berserk and start ranting and throwing a crying-fit (like an idiot).
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